A Diary to My Husband
Man, it’s been awhile since I’ve written you a morning note but…
GOOD MORNING MY LOVE!!! I LOVE YOU!!!
No, I haven’t had my morning coffee yet but I just feel really good even though my sleep tracker says I slept for 5h 59m. I know, it’s pretty strange.
Anyways, I just wanted to tell you how my week has been because I haven’t been quite happy with myself. I skipped out on my workouts despite wanting to. I didn’t write much (I think on my calendar, I only spent 2 hours to write this ENTIRE week). I didn’t meditate. I had some bad sleep — that damn rat keeps making so much noise around the chicken coop, and I can’t wait until the rat trap arrives. And because our schedule has been changing and we’ve been working non-stop on our new project, which for some reason has taken much longer than I had expected, I have been feeling more stressed and unaccomplished.
It’s been driving me crazy.
How can I possibly accomplish what I want if I can’t even get my schedule together?
How can I become who I want to be if I’m neglecting the things that’ve helped me grow?
I know what the solution is. I know what I need to do.
But…why is it that I can’t?
Someone wise once said, “There is one thing in this world you must never forget to do. If you forget everything else and not this, there’s nothing to worry about, but if you remember everything else and forget this, then you will have done nothing in your life.”
I thought about this, long and hard, and realized something I didn’t know about myself: When I’m caught up in the moment, especially on something I’ve never tried before, I forget about everything else. This could be a good thing, had it been a newfound passion. But because it wasn’t, and I neglected parts of my life that I believe are important to my happiness and growth, I felt terrible…simply because I had forgotten what I was really living for.
Now, I know if I ever want to make changes to my life — try something new, work on a new project, build better habits — I need to stick with my foundation: working out, writing, meditating and getting good sleep. Because ultimately, these are the things that energize me, that build my momentum, that tell me, “I got this.” If I have control over what I can do, I can perform with confidence what I can’t do yet.
It’s the way I roll.
On another note, I’m glad we took the extra effort to make something special for my dad’s birthday, because he loved it! The variety, the flavors, the sparkling cider you bought, that garlic bread (oh man, I just drooled 🤤) — this was one of the best BBQs he has ever had, and I think he’s very impressed by all the dishes we’ve made.
I like how we’re giving back to family, especially when it’s through experiences. I hope we continue to do this, on a weekly basis.
Sorry, this time it was the coffee. 😂
I think with this energy, I’m going to do some deep research. But before I go, let me just say….I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU, I’M GRATEFUL, and I can’t wait to watch another episode of “The Mandalorian” with you; I still can’t believe I like Star Wars now, but who knew it could be THIS good?
Thanks for recommending it and sharing all of these new experiences with me. So far you haven’t let me down.
Alright, I’ll see you later tonight. 😉
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